Who me?

learning to see myself clearly

I think I need to take a lesson from the dogs


Confession:  I’ve been letting winter kick my butt the past couple of weeks.

It is common to battle feelings of sluggishness during the low light days of winter.  I know better than to give into the feeling.

It’s important to get out into the sunshine, especially when there is less of it.  My dogs certainly love running around in it.

It’s time for me to refocus.

Step one:  Look at what was working…

  • Yoga and meditation – I’ve missed classes because of the weather
  • Eating more fruits and vegetables
  • Going to 5 or 6 meetings a week
  • Less tv and more reading

Step two:  What was missing…

  • Real exercise – I need to get out and walk more
  • I need to reduce the bad carbs
  • Sleep schedule – I do better when I am more routine about sleep
  • I need to be more social – I need to call people just to talk, I need to make plans and get out

Step three:  Make a plan…

  • Go to Yoga classes on Monday, Wednesday and Saturday.  This also fills part of the social need.  During vacation next week go to at least 2 daytime classes.
  • Meditate everyday – first thing and last thing.  Add Yin if I miss a class
  • Pack my lunch for work
  • Eat fruit and yogurt when I crave something sweet.
  • Go to bed and wake the same time everyday.
  • Meetings – Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.  Meet my sponsor on Fridays.  During vacation next week hit the first light of day on Monday and Friday and the noon meeting on Wednesday.
  • Buy snowshoes and use them.  The dogs will love it.
  • Call at least one person everyday.
  • Call my sponsor at least 4 times a week
  • Everyday – spend time journaling, reading and knitting
  • Find people who like to hike and snowshoe

Step four: Do It!

On a positive note:  I am 49 days sober.


Clearing the noise in my head

How do you clear your mind?  This was the question posed by my friend on Saturday.  As I thought about it, it occurred to me that the answer wasn’t as simple as yoga, breathing, meditation, acupuncture…and all of those type of things I have mentioned.  I realized that it is deeper than that.

As an educator, I have spent over 25 years learning about how the brain works.  I learned, years ago, that when kids were working on things that were strongly right brained they talked less and didn’t seem to notice the passage of time.  I came to understand that this made sense because it is the left brain that perceives time and processes language.

I realized that when I thought about the kinds of things that calm me, they were primarily right brain activities.  I think that when I sit and run negative thoughts or over analyze things, that happens in my left brain.  Music, art, creativity, spatial kinds of puzzles, sudoku, watching and listening to the waves at the ocean, laughter, spontaneity all happen in my right brain and help pull me away from the things that drag me down.  It is when I do these kinds of things that time passes effortlessly and I relax.  Yoga and things like that work because I get lost in the music (right brain).


Searching for peace


To be calm in my heart…that is what I seek.  I think if I learn to quiet my mind, to let go, this journey will be a success.

I love to go out to breakfast.  When I discovered there is a Saturday morning meeting at my favorite diner, I knew I’d be there.  It was a terrific way to start the day.  By the time I left, my tummy was nicely full and my mind was in a good place.  I was feeling a bit stressed and tight in my neck and shoulders.  I’ve also had some issues with tendinitis in my elbow.  I wanted some relief, so I decided it was a good time to give acupuncture a try.  I went in with no idea what to expect, but figured it was worth trying.

The studio is a community acupuncture studio, which seeks to provide affordable treatment to everyone.  The treatment room is warm and relaxing.  You choose a spot in the big circle of recliners and settle in.  The acupuncturist places the needles and you relax.  Most people fall asleep.  Treatments run from 30-90 minutes.  You leave when you are ready.  You pay what you want, $15-35, no questions asked.

When I left, I felt wonderful.  There was a calm in my heart.

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Take time for yourself

soul happy


Today is a better day.  Last night, I took my own advice and took care of myself.  I spent a relaxing evening with my dogs, reading and knitting.  I watched a little tv and listened to some good music.  I ate healthy food and drank water.  This morning I feel a little more like myself.

I feel more like the self I haven’t been for a while.  And that is good.